Coupons make me happy.

I have never liked spending money. I love the way a wad of cash looks like in my wallet...and it has always pained me to have to hand that money over to someone else.

The only exception to my shopping avoidance...is the grocery store.

I love the grocery store. I usually go by myself...and I can walk around for hours just looking at everything.

A couple years ago my daughters Aunt started doing this coupon program and she was getting TONS of stuff for free, and for ridiculously cheap. It seemed like a really complicated process, so I just let her do all the work, and enjoyed our stacked pantry.

Now that we no longer are roomates... I have to do it for myself. It's so much fun!

Sunday and Wednesday are now my favorite days of the week because of the Sunday Paper coupons, and the Wednesday Grocery Ads that come in the mail. I clip my coupons and sit with the grocery ads for an hour mapping out the best deals and the best prices I can get with my coupons. I also print coupons from online and joined a couple of really great Coupon-Mom forums to take advantage of the REALLY great coupon shoppers. Some of these women have stocked up over a years worth of toothpaste, toilet paper and canned goods.

Very little relaxes me as much as a stack of coupons and a grocery list.

I love the feeling of walking out of the grocery store with a cart full of groceries and having only spent a few dollars, or the amazed looks of other shoppers.

Anyways, I just felt like sharing my love of coupons with the blog world.

Keep on Keepin on.

The last month has been a bit of a roller coaster. Emotionally of course, cause I've never even been on a roller coaster. lol

Anyways.

It started with my sudden realization that things might not end up the way I have been planning for them to.

The wedding that I pictured in my head, probably not going to happen. Maybe someday it will, but it just isn't in the cards right now. Even at the point when the cards start to turn in our favor... it's not going to be the ideal wedding that lives in my head. My family won't be there, and the odds are my friends from back home won't be either. It will be a ceremony in front of Gf's important people...which is still good, but like I said... not ideal.

The next dip on the coaster came when Gf kind of sprung on me, that maybe she doesn't want another baby after all.

I almost freaked out. Well actually, I totally did freak out. Not almost. It was like someone had just ripped the rug from under my feet and I was laying flat on my back and staring at the ceiling trying to figure out what just happened.

It wasn't that long ago that we were talking about baby names...and now she might not want to have another one? Um. Wait. That doesn't work for me.

Having a baby is 175% part of the way I see my future. I'm not done having babies. I want another go-round. I want to plan a baby, I want to enjoy and celebrate being pregnant. I want a REAL baby shower with guests that actually want to be there and a cute cake and lame games. I want to paint a nursery and pick out adorable baby shoes and soft little blankets.

Those are things I missed out on with my first two pregnancies. I didn't get to have the happy stuff, and I feel like part of me isn't complete until I have the opportunity to experience those things.

I don't think that is too much to ask. I mean, I'm not talking about wanting to go out and pick a donor tomorrow... I'm talking about a couple of years down the road... and now she is saying that that will maybe never happen.

That's kind of a dealbreaker for me.

So that brought me to this big moral dilemma. Do I stay with someone that doesn't want the same things that I want...someone who's life plan doesn't include the major thing that mine does... or do I put that dream aside for now and hope it all works out in the end? Or do I just let the dream go all together, and take it as the cost of being with someone I love.

I decided to go with option B. Put it aside for now, because there isn't anything I can do and losing Gf isn't an option. Not for me, and not for the kids I already have. She is our family now, and to me, family sticks it out.

So now I'm back to where I was a while back. Just keepin on Keepin on.

Sunday's are my Friday's.

So these day's I work Wednesday through Sunday... so Sunday's are my Friday's.

Now, I'm not a terribly exciting person, so it doesn't reaaaalllly matter what day my friday falls on. I'm not goin out and clubbin or barhoppin or any of that kind of thing. My Friday, no matter if it falls on a Sunday or a Saturday will always be spent the same way.... sittin on my couch, catchin up on the stuff I missed through the week in Blog-land and then catching up on the stuff I DVR'rd through the week... playing on facebook (I'm so addicted to Fish World that it is insanely sad).

Tonight I also taught my 8 year old how to start a load of laundry and start the washing machine. That made me happy. The idea that I can start delegating that to her as a chore sometime in the near future... I like that idea.

Not that I don't liiike doing the laundry. I'd rather do laundry than dishes... but one less thing that I (or Gf for that matter) have to do the better. I mean, come on. One of the perks of having children is the eventual slave labor. LOL.

In other news, nothing new really goin on around here. Same ol, Same Ol. Just gettin through every day and looking forward to every tomorrow. That's really all anyone can do right?

Watching Babe

I had never watched Babe before today.

My three year old climbed in bed with me after Gf left for work and asked to watch a movie. Of course there were no movies on for kids at that point except for Babe.
I wasn't sure if I could tolerate a movie about a talking pig. I mean, I could barely sit through Charlottes Web.

But I found myself totally into it. I think that I may have to use "That'll do Pig" as my new catchphrase.


Totally adorable.

And now my kid is pretending to be a pig . Even more adorable.

It's my Monday

So I've always been very into music. All kinds of music. Just wanted to share some lyrics this morning... cause its my Monday, I feel like posting, but don't have the mental capacity to find anything meaningful to say.

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

Save me From Myself by Christina Aguilera

The Flu. Ick

The Flu bug visited our house this week. Thank God it's over. Gf got it first, then it hit me yesterday... I didn't get as sick as she did, but sick enough to remember why I hate being sick.

It's over now, and I don't feel fantastic, but I feel better than I did yesterday. Now I get to go over to my Bestests house and help her go through her madness of a closet and pack up stuff. Whooo hooo.

lol

Oh, and just to acknowledge... Patrick Swayze died. *sigh* Sad. I feel like the whole world should watch Dirty Dancing tonight.

Survey Says...

Ok, so I was lookin at my visitor locations. You know, the list of how many people have viewed my blog, where they came from, and how they got to me...and I realized that more people are reading than I thought! Which is awesome.

I would really REALLY love to know who's lookin and how they found me... so if you are reading this...pretty please leave me a comment and say Hi! If you don't mind revealing your "identity" I'd love to get to know ya, and how you found me!

Thaaaaaaannnnkkkkks!